Getting bigger? Not really.

I decided to take the twins to the doctor for a weight check. I really didn't feel like they were gaining weight properly and it was starting to make me paranoid and stressed out.

So, as of last Wednesday Ava was still weighing in at 6lbs even (for the 3rd straight week in a row) and Alex had gained 2 oz - which was good, but not good enough.

Time to break out the formula.

This was a really hard transition for me emotionally. I was really beating myself up that I wasn't able to provide for my kids. I struggeled the next day or two over what I was going to do -how I was going to feed them. I thought long and hard about quitting nursing all together. I was so close to throwing the towel in. Then, I thought maybe I'd just continue to nurse the twins a few times a day and give them bottles in between. Although I wasn't enjoying nursing all too much lately... I was sore and felt like something just 'wasn't right'. Finally, we discovered the true problem...

Ava has a short tongue - some might say she's 'tongue-tied'. Her frenulum (that piece of skin under your tongue that connects it to the bottom of your mouth) is basically located at the tip of her tongue and she was having a really hard time latching, thus making her inefficient in her sucking. It wasn't my fault after all. (and there was finally an explanation to the pain and soreness I have been having for weeks now)

I finally made the decision to continue nursing Alex, and to feed Ava with bottles. She will get my pumped milk, and formula when necessary - right now that's alot since she has some catching up to do!

I'm anxious for these kiddos to put some weight on... they've got a gigantic wardrobe to get into!

I'm relieved and so much less stressed now. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'm glad I can continue to nurse, and I really feel like I have more structure and more freedom!

Our next doctor's appt is on Wednesday and we're hoping for a big gain.